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Shocking life is the most famous gay porn star in Israel – Life & Culture



In the inner room in the darkened club sit two young men in workwear. They are beautiful and muscular. While waiting for the stage, loud basses and electronic music in the room are clearly heard. While sitting one at the other on the couch, they take part in the conversation. Obviously, two people already met: "Do you still live in Barcelona?" Pita one. "Still working in pornography?" The other man replies: "No, my sister had cancer last year, I could not do anything." "Is it okay now?" The first man asks. "She died in February."

While this update and comfort take place, both are involved in something else. As part of the forthcoming show preparation, live sex on the club scene, it handles its pennies, with the aim of creating and maintaining the installation. There is nothing erotic about it, it is purely mechanical, almost completely random. It was not a sensual gesture, it seemed to create a pleasure, but more like a polishing tool, with one hand comforting, with fluttering blows, another rubbing. Disonance and dissociation between their actions and their attitudes leave the viewer agorose.

The open scene "Jonathan Agassi Saves My Life," Tomer Heymann's new documentary, leaves no room for doubt. Anyone who has read the film's description, following a decade in the life of Israeli gay-porn star Jonathan Agassi, but who expects some precision or concealment, will be disappointed. "Jonathan Agassi", like the man himself, does not bark around the bush or sympathize with the audience. The film represents a certain world and one person in it, a layered and full of contradictions. So the reality and its axioms in terms of permissible and forbidden, good and evil, are constantly being examined in this film. For a moment things are shown through the eyes of the movie star, and then reflected through the eyes of the director, and then descending, through the world of prostitution and drugs, until the final blow.


Lucas fun

"The first time I saw the movie, I could not say the sound. For the second time I thought I could react and talk, but I started crying," says Agassi.

Is it difficult for you to see yourself through someone else's eyes, someone who represents a fracture and dampen the story you told about the person who found happiness and who is on top of the world?

"The film is not hard for me, I'm not watching it and I'm experiencing the difficult time I've been through. Now, when I look back at a decade, it was a story, but I was not aware of it until I saw the movie. he heard about the movie Tomer planned to make for me, but no one imagined, no one could imagine the way I described it, that it would be such a miserable documentary. "

Maybe because it contains things you have not directly watched, you did not call by name, something Tomer did?


Amnon Sinai

"Yes, that's possible."

For three months the movie is played in local cinemas in packed halls, with virtually no advertising and no media. Last summer he was awarded the Best Documentary Prize and Editor's Award at the Jerusalem Film Festival. At that time he received a happy review, but mostly remained below the radar. This should change from November 11, when it will start running as an extended series on channel 8, which has been one of the film financiers since its inception. (Agassi, his mother and two brothers also appeared in the earlier series of Heymann brothers, "Families", which was broadcast on Channel 8 in 2013). A few days later, she will compete for the best film award at the IDFA documentary film festival in Amsterdam. This is long enough for his star to become accustomed to exposure, and this was not exposure to him.

"The story begins before porn"

Jonathan Langer, 34, was born in Brooklyn and grew up in Holon. He will be the first to describe himself as an exhibitionist. It is not his appearance in pornographic films, nor the simplicity of exposing his body (even to the screenplay of a movie in which he is not "on duty", he goes pole). It seems he has documented since he became aware of himself. His personal computer includes thousands of photos and video clips from his childhood even before he was re-invented as Jonathan Agassi.

The parents divorced when she was six months old, and her relationships with her father were almost non-existent. His mother, Anna, in contrast, has played a key role in life, and is also in the movie. A few pictures in the movie seem like an allusion to the Pieta table, and the mother was wearing a husband son, full of unconditional love for him – even when wearing a robe and a heel. Anna and Jonathan are currently living together in a small apartment in southern Tel Aviv. The film can follow Jonathan through cracks and revolve around life, but mainly focuses on his relationship with his mother and the way he manages to be a stone in windy life. It is a life that always seems stale, even when it was not aware of it.

"The story begins before the porn," he says, illuminating the cigarette. "I was a sensitive and feminine boy. I only had friends, never a boy, I was a gay guy," he says with a smile. "I always showed sexuality at Sheink Street, where there was a grocery store, such as fur bags, I was 14 years old, and I liked shopping there, and I had a lot of social problems, so they looked like a girl. School was a routine, which happened every day, but I came back. I do not know how to describe that period. "

We will return to that period and what has happened, which could affect his sexual maturity and his outdoor exhibition of sexuality at an early age.

Langer lost his innocence at the age of 14 to the older man who told him to close his eyes and pretend to be a woman. What he thought was a man. About a year or two later, he came out, openly out of the closet, though he says, "I've never been in the closet and I've always been gone."

He never finished high school, completing only 10 years of schooling. Instead, he studied make-up and hairdressing and worked in a shop that was part of a large chain, making his way as a fashion show makeup. Those years. He released a room with another man and completed his income at the weekend by working at a sex store near the old bus terminal in Tel Aviv.


Ethan Tal

"It was a grocery store with dull emissions, the weakest you could get. I had enough time to kill the weekend, which was when I started to be interested in porn. That was the year I was nice, with a good body and looks good. "He says he did not consume pornography until he worked in the store, which also coincides with him and his partner when Langer was 23 years old.

"When I was in the shop, I would take DVDs and watch the scenes, the camera, the food, and the people who care about your needs. Everything you do is rest and wait for the next scene," laughs. "When my partner and I split up, I went back to my mother in Holon and I was confused. "One day I saw an online ad looking for porn stars, not a big company, but I realized there was something."

She started to sign up for audition. At the same time, to make this happen, Michael Lucas, a burning Zionist, director and owner of Lucas Entertainment, one of the largest porn production companies in the United States, came to Israel to direct the film to local men. Langer jumped on this opportunity and quickly offered a role. While the recording was still in progress, even before men of Israel became one of the most profitable gay-porn features, it was signed for two more productions.

Then the name "Jonathan Agassi" was born, an alter ego that in the current movie is described as a superhero, a figure that helps him, who is always on his side. Jonathan Agassi became a star almost overnight. From a young Holon man who had almost never left the country, Langer became a man of the world, moving and getting to know all the world's airports. It still describes that period as the happiest in life.

"For me, sex was always something free," she explains, crossing her legs on the sofa. "Sex making seemed never to be forbidden, the body was something good and nice and I was always comfortable with nudity." My panties were like gloves. "But when she told her mother about her new call, she had a foreseeable reaction, she says: "What are you doing in the world?" And so on. The thing is, I'm good at persuading people, and I managed to convince her. I was on a contract banning the use of drugs, and I was not in that world anyway. As an innocent child it looked organized and charmed, with people who protected you and watched you do not fool yourself. "

Like a model apartment in Milan.

"That's right, so it could be."

Pornography, however – and that's why Agassi responded – was the dive door to the depths. It seems that convincing Agassi suceededed in deluding both himself and those around him for a long time. Even when it should be clear that the life he was selling actually dropped around him, the truth was hard to pass through the wall he had built around him.

"Today I can say that there were a lot of situations I could say I'm naive, I actually saw things that way, and when I believe in something, I'll do everything to make people see things that way." At the end of the film I said that everything that I was fighting, all of my people told me what I was doing, things I did not want to listen to – all this happened, I just fell as they told me I wanted to.I believed so much and I wanted things so bad I did not see that is coming. "

Maybe there was something you wanted in there?

"Absolutely, I wanted it very much." Eexistence is the word that best describes me. "

Why did not you start playing legitimately?


Itay Azrieli

"I never wanted to, but I think I would become a model that would work, but I think I could have done the same thing in the end. That's what I believe."

The combination of your character, a lot of money and a lot of attack would take you to the same place?

"Yes, at the same point, it's not pornography that brought me there, it's a lifestyle associated with it." A lot of free time, a lot of money around the globe, escort is just one of the many steps down the road. "

& # 39; Traveling with a Client & # 39;

Ten years is the time for a slide that ends with a collapse. Young Agassi was on top of the world. He had an exclusive contract with Lucas Entertainment, and he became a busy player who earned thousands of dollars per movie. Along with the movie appearances, he starts performing in a live sex show. Initially, there were sessions on the sex industry, which are trying to maintain the air of dignity and order. Then she appeared on sex parties in clubs in Israel and abroad. Finally, after long refusing the offer, he began to work as a companion. He tells his sister in the movie that when he says "traveling with a client," that is what it means, adding he is not a prostitute, more like Julia Roberts at Pretty Woman.

The personal crisis has led to further deterioration. He decided to move to Berlin, where he went, perhaps unconsciously, into a journey of self-destruction. "Drugs and sex are abundant and available in Berlin, but it took me two to three years before I became a daily user. I have a nice apartment in Berlin, I worked a lot and people recognized me on the street, turning my head as I walked. "

However, after two years things have started to fall. "I went away from taking medication once a month to use them on weekends at parties, and then I would start the weekend on Thursday and finish it on Wednesday, sleep half a night and move on, I did not fear anything, I just wanted to get away with everything I did I was sure that death was near.

"I started with coke and it was a pretty quiet period, using it 2-3 times a week, and I traveled many times for shoots and performances.

At one of the excursions, Agassi tried a crystal ball, "although I knew the drug and what it was doing and it was dangerous." He is immediately hooked.

Was there no warning signs? No bells in the head?


Lucas fun

"All the warnings were there, I knew people were dying from heavy drugs in the clubs, I knew, but I did not listen, my character is that I always cross the border, I have no fears, I'm extremely turning, I'm not afraid."

From that moment on, his life moved between the drinking of GHB, a high-dose muscle relaxant used as a "drug for rape", consuming crystal meth ("becoming an animal without any inhibition or fear") and massive prostitution. On a routine day, Agassi would have fewer than five clients, but sometimes there were more than 12. He estimates that his income exceeded a million dollars ($ 270,000) in those years. Sometimes she would make 3,000 shekels in one day. "But I would smoke or injected the next day. I was surrounded by people like me and it seemed normal to be round about sex and drugs."

This deterioration is slowly and gradually depicted in the film and is almost inconspicuous. Even today, it is difficult to blossom the shell around Agassi. If during the first part of the film the viewer asks if he will look at a true happy prostitute and should give up old-fashioned terms about the immorality of prostitution, it is only in the second half that it is clear that there is no such thing as a happy sex worker who does not suffer from serious physical and mental consequences.

"Everything seemed nice and good"

Even today it is difficult to convince Agassi about it two years after stopping after surgery to repair the tears in his body caused by sex with men and his pornographic work and after a few months of recovery in his mother's home. In the fourth episode of the television show (though not included in the movie version), we see that Agassi is preparing for a new type of show. He will stand on the stage, surrounded by pebbles, and any anonymous sexual organ that has pushed his way will enjoy it. It is a completely dark scene, cruel, and Agassi looks like someone removed from their humanity through their self-denial and self-destruction, exploited as a secret to a multitude of users who touch it. He is so confused that his eyes are blurred when he talks about a new job: "People were honored and were good to me, but it quickly became a job, I would wake up, answer the call, and go where I should go. called prostitution, it seemed like any other business. "

But, should you take Viagra in advance, take the medication, and what did your body do, satisfying at least five people a day?

"I have not seen a negative impact on my body and mind. Until today I do not see. I think many negative things did not come from escort."

There's a weird blend in you, Jonathan. On the one hand, you've experienced the weakest things in life, actually dark aspects, but you have some terrible naivety about people and their intentions, what they see in you and for what purpose they use you, and mostly what it does to you.

"You know, I do not think I ever thought about what I did, I did not see it, I did not see the self-destruction even when it was obvious My mother says I've never listened to my body Now I'm different, I'm trying to listen Then I was deep in ecstasy and the truth is that even now I look at that period and I do not see it as difficult. I do not see it as destructive. "

Jonathan, you've been tall all the time.

"That's true, but I'm a proof of having happy bitches."

You had to be drugged all the time to succeed.

"I wanted to be drugged."

Would you have come to this situation if you were not on drugs all the time?

"I think it is, but I can not separate it because it was a pack – porn, accompanying drugs, all seemed nice and good I did not feel I was in a forbidden or bad place I've never seen escort as a dark place It was a bad thing, but it was a good thing. If I was a regular person, not a user, many things were different or it would not have happened, but I was not. "

Father and his German partner

The things that were below the surface appeared in the film in uncontrolled outbreaks. These are moments that Agassi still can not watch. Sometimes she comes to projections and keeps short conversations with the audience (who respond with relief when they see him healthy, smiling, alive). In a recent Saturday night survey, she avoided looking at an exterior monitor that shows people who were waiting for what the film was and how far it was. Then he enters the auditorium with a smile – but he can not stand looking at himself rolling in the street, lying on a car, crying in a psychotic style. This is happening during the film when it comes to drugs and when issues of his relationship with father and family history appear.

This seems to be the problem of bleeding that no one paid attention, especially Agassi. When his older brother was 13 and was almost 12 years old, two were sent to Hamburg to visit his father and his German partner. It is almost the first encounter between them and explains – at least in Heymann's eyes, and although Agassi does not see it that way – much of what happened in the life of a son. The father watched the feminine son, complained and tugged at him. He called him "homo" and pressed him to have sexual intercourse with his (father) adult partner. Agassi, an 11-year-old boy, turns out to be a victim of a sexual harpy.

"I have never seen this as a traumatic one, but today I realize that it is sexual harassment." I still do not understand how my dad did not see it today, but I think that should not happen, maybe my salvation was not part of my consciousness. in my subconscious, she always hovered, it was somehow related to my father, but I never did bring it, I do not think she has explained it. Maybe that's good. "

As a defense mechanism?


Mari Laukkanen

"Yes, when we filmed and came across the whole thing, it was like a scratch wound I did not know was there." Tomer took her and finally everything was buried there. "Do you think I'm suppressing it?"

Is it?

"I think that after I brought Tomer into his story, after I showed him the photographs of that event with that German woman, he only entered my consciousness only then, but I was just looking into the adult's eyes." Until then I was talking to myself as if it's a funny experience and all I care about was the tie I bought.

You said the story where it was a funny event, but in reality was that something painful?

"Yes, I'm starting to think, I know you can expect it, but I do not hate my father, I even love him." "I do not feel traumatized, I'm not angry because he's done well, and I'm not a culprit whose life collapsed, I'm not a pessimist. we pass. "

There is a heartbeat moment there, where you look like someone who understands that he was fooled, that his father had been seduced by him.

"It ended with a cold break, I hugged him, and I did not look at it again, so it ended, and a year later I came back to Berlin, we met and things were fine." My problem with Ravivom was not as a father, but he did not help me to live when I was in Berlin. He had a chance to fix our entire history, and that did not happen. I was more serious about it than the sexual harassment I experienced when I was 11 or 12. "


Adi Reis

There is also a story about the gay community and what the movie says about it, and the reactions, sometimes sharp, people are after watching the movie. What is represented is the culture of clubs and drugs, sex, in cash or without restriction; the reflection of the movie sets in front of the community is not a picture of a normative society of people working in high-tech twins born through a surrogate.

"I would not want to generalize," Agassi says, illuminating another cigarette. "I do not think the movie is about homosexuals, just about some parts of this community, maybe big segments, it's a drug-dealing community, it's a party that's deep in sex, we're a community of people, that's part of it. I do not describe it too dark, I would not want the community to show it. "

You said that at age 15 or 16, you've already received sexual cash offers.

"At the age of 15, I opened a profile on homosexuals websites, and I started to get bids. When you are obviously getting bids from older men who support you." All my friends got money at a young age , I do not think I'm special. As soon as I entered the LGBT community, I began to offer sex for money. Geeks measure you and assess whether you are young, if you are handsome, if you have a big penis. Unfortunately, that is something community-based. I am concerned that people will think of destroying the community, but that's a big part of what looks like a lot of drugs and sex, a thin line between sexual freedom and abandonment. It is a world ruled by people. "

Sex as power

The sincerity with which Agassi expresses something is complex and heartbreaking. She is shaken and tries to reduce the impact of the lost decade. He is charismatic and sweet in a way that makes it difficult for him to face reality. He will reject descriptions of himself as victims of the sex industry, although he fits in with the prototype. In his relationship to sex and relationships (in a modest scene in the movie, he declares he does not need a partner or a love because he can ask his clients to embrace him at night) and in his desire for the first time in years to have a relationship. At the end of our conversation, she says she was the least sexual she had last year. "I turned away from someone whose life was constantly turning around in someone who does not give her the central role she had, my life turned around in sex, I went to sleeping at home, but I've only sex twice during the last year. to turn it into something more human. "

Sex for you was like your super power over time. There you were sure and confident, with your body and penis, fantasies, you were sure you had something to give.

"I do not think that sex is what I can give, that my strong suits, I have not found what it is, I still do not know what I can give to the world, I'm still looking. the film leads to educational work, so the community changes their approach to drugs, and I want to know that I have the experience and the wisdom to do it, and what has happened to me is what I can give to the world. I'm not in there anymore, and I think so much about what I can depend on – I'm sure I'll find her – I'm in good shape now – The movie put me a jigsaw puzzle I do not remember much I could analyze them how they were doing I might not coming out of it. "

What would you like?

"I really want kids, but I feel like I'm getting away from it because it's a long and difficult process, financially difficult, I'm not very optimistic about it, I'm going to try to find it in the near future, I work in a kiosk, but it's not forever. I'm trying to plan ahead and do things I'm trying to plan forwards and do things I do not know what direction I should go I do not know which direction to go I might go back to makeup and hairstyle I'm looking for myself but I'm psychically calm I've always been impulsive – I would do anything that came to mind wisely. "


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